Monday, June 7, 2010

Well well.. I haven't updated my blog for quite some time. Really lazy to do it lol. Hardly anyone reads it. Well I'll be stopping form 6 midway to study diploma in occupational therapy in Sungai Buloh. Wonder if I should call up Chew Yi to tell her that I am leaving. She'd be happy for sure lol...

Saturday, April 24, 2010

A day of wingman duty

Went to Penang with Tatt, Nishpal and KC yesterday. Was actually gonna hang out with Nishpal only but Tatt needed us for backup. So wingman duty it was. Here was the mission:

A girl he wants to hit on, Natasha, registered for this modeling gig and he was suppose to go with her. And there is where we come in. He doesn't dare to go alone and we were his backup. But we had to take public transport because Tatt didn't have any wheelz (my dad offered to let me use his but I was like, nah it's okay we're going by public transport, turns out I should've accepted the offer)

So we met up at Tatt's after 1:30 and took a bus to Convent Butterworth, where he was suppose to meet up with Nat. Found a bottle of Mountain Dew in the 7eleven there :-D

So we waited for Nat, and sent her friend off and after plenty of delays we finally ended up in Penang somewhere around 4 >.<

Honestly at this time I was really wondering why on earth did I agree to go out. Dang...

After a whole lot of pointless wandering, we finally settled down at Mr Pots to have a drink and some chat time. KC and I had cocktails (him a screwdriver and I had a Malibu with pineapple juice) while Nishpal had Tiger beer and Tatt had coffee and Nat had this purple drink (blueberry I think). KC's face got all red lol.

Then we walked from Gurney to the Esplanade for the Vasakhi open house where Nishpal was suppose to meet a friend. Then we sat around, had some food and decided to bunk off at 8:30. Tatt and Nat went off twenty minutes earlier but they where still there when we arrived at the jetty. Take that *pap*

We took a lot of pics but they're all in Tatt's camera so no pics in yet :-P

Well KC finally decided to come clean and tell me what was happening and all. Turns out Chew Yi told the girls in class about me and what I do. So I got labelled freak, maniac, obsessive and all sorts of bad labels by them girls. That was probably enough for her to crack and start blocking me and all. Ah, I don't really know what to do. Am I obsessive? Am I a freak? Maybe, maybe not.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Another Day Out

Yay! Finally watched “Clash of the Titans” in 3D! But sadly, even though I anticipated it for so long, it wasn’t much special. Yes indeed, it was a nice movie. But 3D? No thank you. It almost wasn’t in 3D at all. More like a HD movie than 3D.

Well Tatt was suppose to get the tickets. But he pulled out because he wanted to go to Convent Butterworth’s Sports Day in some obscure unknown B.M. Stadium (He wants to hit on this 15 year old Eurasian girl from Convent Butterworth who just so happens to be my sister’s friend and my sister’s classmate’s cousin). So anyway I called up Marrtin and Vimalan (I promised Marrtin that I’d call him) but they decided not to skip school. So I called Su-Lyn Jie instead. Actually I was like, should I call her? Should I not? And finally when I decided I forgot that I saved her number in the other sim card. So by the time I asked her, it was after 6 am in the morning lol. Well surprisingly, she agreed :-D

Well after the movie (which to me, was a disappointment because it almost wasn’t 3D) we walked around before going down to Big Apple to get donuts. She got a green tea donut (if I’m not wrong, she said she likes green tea donuts). Then we walked around again and chatted about all sorts of stuff and then went to Dome for lunch. Actually it was my suggestion because it’s been like a ritual to me: Every time I go to Gurney, I’d go to Dome for lunch and order a glass of red. The red wasn’t really good. I think the bottle must have been opened some time ago. Either that or the Vella I had last month just spoiled my taste buds. It wasn’t a very expensive lunch, less than RM90. I paid with a RM100 note and left RM10 as a tip (Usually I’ll just leave the change, but I needed the RM1 notes to pay for the car park). Su-Lyn Jie was like, wow you spend money like water… Well what can I say? It’s actually a habit. She pocketed the 10 that was meant for the tip though XD

After that I dropped her off at her home and went to tuition. Bad move. I should’ve stayed at my grandma’s house instead because I was so friggin tired that I couldn’t concentrate much in tuition. After I dropped her off I kept wondering: was I boring? Did she enjoy herself? I don’t really know. Honestly I felt I was a little boring because most of the time I was like, where do you wanna go? What do you wanna do? Let’s walk around and look at stuff. OMG, can you imagine how boring it would be if a guy asks you out and doesn’t plan anything beforehand??? I mean, I didn’t expect to do much, because when I go out with Chew Yi it would usually be just for lunch and nothing else. Hope it’s not as awful that I’m afraid it would be. To me, it was a fairly nice day because I got to go out, watch a movie and have lunch with a friend. But did I bore her to death? I dunno. And did I seem like I was not paying attention to her when she was talking? I dunno as well, but sometimes I would look inattentive even though I’m listening carefully.

Well after all those worries passed, I was hit by a weird sense of guilt. Damn I tell you, why does this have to happen? It’s not like Chew Yi is my girlfriend or anything, but somehow at times like these (eg. When I was texting with Pei Feng, after spending the afternoon with Su-Lyn Jie) I always get hit by a wave of guilt. Man, I must be going crazy. But that’s just life. I gotta get used to it. After Chew Yi “disappeared”, I just couldn’t get myself to hit on other girls nor get close to them. I mean, it’s like there’s some sort of curse or something which says I must only be close to Chew Yi and like no one else but her. Sad, ain’t it?

Well, I found an envelope on my bed before going to bed. IT WAS MY INTERVIEW LETTER XDDDDDDD

YEA BABY!

Can’t really believe I got selected for the interview! Ok here’s a recap: I applied for the public services scholarship last year (almost 1 year ago) to study in the Sungai Buloh health college. After waiting for nearly a year I practically gave up, because it was already February and they didn’t even invite me for the interview. But 2 months after writing off my chances of being called up (actually I was just waiting for the end of the month to re-register for the scholarship), I got the interview letter. Call that luck, call that divine intervention, call that anything you want, but 1 thing I know, this is going to be the start of a new life. I’m going to ace that test and interview and I’m going off to college in the midyear intake. Who would’ve thought my life would be this great? Wait a minute, it has been great all along! :-D

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Chicken pox, VZV and immunes systems

Well anyway, COULD CHICKEN POX KILL SOMEONE???

If you ask me, the answer, yes. It’s definitely a yes. But how is that possible? If you tell that to every single doctor in your neighbourhood and they’ll probably call you crazy. Let’s start from the main subject: Chicken pox. Chicken pox is a HIGHLY CONTAGEOUS illness caused by the varicella zoster virus (VZV). Note that it’s highly contagious. Therefore, almost every time you go near someone with chicken pox, you’ll get infected. But it’s a common knowledge that one doesn’t get chicken pox twice, so I guess you’ll be asking me: What nonsense are you talking about?

Well dear readers, we INDEED get infected by the VZV almost every time we go near someone with chicken pox. But the reason why we don’t get chicken pox? Easy: After the first time we get chicken pox, the lymphocytes in our body will form memory cells, which, when we get infected by the same virus again, will act very much quickly compared to the first time. Its’ reaction towards the VZV is so fast that all the VZV gets destroyed before you see tell-tale signs and symptoms. That is why you usually can’t get infected twice. Usually can’t? Yes indeed, usually can’t. Not always. Why? Pretty simple: It’s also the reason why chicken pox can be fatal.

Due to the efficiency of our immune system, the memory cells act so fast that it can deactivate the VZV before you body shows any signs of infection. So how do you get it for a second time? Think carefully, and you will come up with only 1 explanation: When your immune system is spoiled. Once your immune system stops functioning properly, you will start getting infected by even the weakest virus which usually gets destroyed by the lymphocytes in your body. So when will our immune system break down? Ask a normal person and he or she will tell you it’s when you are sick or have a fever (trust me, most people will say that, including an ex-classmate who scored A1 in the biology in the SPM). The actual answer is when you get Acute Immuno Deficiency Syndrome (AIDS), of course. It’s pretty complicated to explain how the HIV virus deactivates your T-lymphocytes here, because I doubt most of the readers of this blog (if there are any) would know what I’m talking about, except for Katherine probably (I think she might be studying medicine, but she might not be following my blog anymore because I cuss at KC in a comment lol). So if the VZV enters your body when your immune system is down, you’ll get chicken pox again, which can lead to things like pneumonia if the virus isn’t dealt with. Ta Da… Impressive nonsense isn’t it? But honestly, if you have AIDS, I doubt you’ll die of chicken pox (or worrying about dying of chicken pox) anyway so everything I said is probably useless and unnecessary >.<

Mind if anyone blast me for being misguided or verify my statements?

Movies and a question that got me thinking hard...

Today I watched “How to Train Your Dragon” at Sunway. I planned to watch it in 3D on Monday but because of the ferry I was late to collect my ticket and my booking expired so I had to watch “Just another Pandora’s Box” because the theater hall was full when I got there. Both movies were great. Well this afternoon just as the movie was coming to an end, Mels texted me and asked me if one could die from chicken pox. Mind her, she’s always going about how she wants to die and how life sucks (To make matters worse, her best friend Ngee May is also the same >.<). Well anyway I can’t say that she’s overreacting, because I’m very much better off than she is. The fact that her mum passed away when she was little and she has a live in aunt (Trust me, I wouldn’t mind if any of my aunts stay under the same roof as me, but somehow every friends I have who live with their aunt have bad experiences) and has this kidney problem which caused her to miss her SPM last year and as a result she has to repeat a year. I’ve never had a life like that before so I won’t comment on it even though she’s a real pessimist. Although I dare say I would fare much better than her if I was put into her shoes (an inflated ego and the reliance on peers for support rather than my family is the secret), you can’t really blame her as she’s probably got her pessimistic and doom-saying attitude after all those hard knocks in her life (Try to beat that or stop acting like a loser KC). As for her friend Ngee May, I don’t know so I won’t comment. She might actually have a worse life than I do anyway.

Well anyway, she asked me if chicken pox could kill someone if it went untreated. I thought she had a friend with chicken pox and wanted to catch it so she could die. So I told her that it can kill. It was suppose to be a joke at first, but after hitting the send button, it suddenly hit me. Can it really kill someone? Honestly, that simple (some would call it stupid and obvious) question, it actually fired up my brain cells and I started to think. Was it really possible? I’m going to post it in a separate post because it’s too long. It might be a bit controversial though. But still it’s logical, although unnecessary.

Side note: KC likes to brand himself as a thinker and say that I’d never have the mind of a thinker but I realized that he’s actually an Aristotelian; someone who explains about a certain phenomena based on thought alone, without any proper research and solid evidence, and forms various hypothesizes. In contrast, I am someone who tries to explain something based on theories proven by others. Therefore in a way, the both of us are thinkers, except that he thinks of what might be possible, while I think of what is possible. Well you can’t blame him, given his limited knowledge on science. Well, he’s not totally hopeless in science (he has an interest in physics and astronomy and is good in mechanical stuff. Betcha he can build a robot if you give him the resources), but he’s more arts oriented (note his unlimited imagination. He is probably a male version of Alice and has his own wonderland) and due to his lack in knowledge in other parts of science except for physics and astronomy, he often has to think of imaginary hypothesis to explain any simple phenomena, like if he sees lights in the sky he’ll say it’s a UFO instead of an airplane (okay, that’s exaggerating, but you get the picture). He’ll definitely kill all his patients if he was a doctor lol. But he’ll do well as a researcher if he can get real results to back his hypothesizes, that is.

So it turns out Mels has this infection with red spots all over her and some breathing problems. Don’t really know what it is though, but it sure isn’t AIDS anything chronic and incurable. There’s a very tiny chance that it might be allergy though. Whatever it is, I hope it’s not life threatening (I doubt it is, but who knows since I didn’t do an actual diagnosis of her).

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

You aint never been on a REAL road trip before

Trust me, you havent. At least not unless you've been on one with me and Tatt. Here's a bit of introduction (Last time someone who read this thought that Tatt was my previous school). Tatt is a big guy we call Phat Tatt who looks like one of those creatures from the Planet of Apes. He loves to cuss and show the universal hand signal. All his bad ways aside, he's a real great cook (trust me, I've tasted some stuff) and he's studying some culinary diploma and loves to eat Char Siu.

So anyway the both of us planned to go over to Kampar to see Chew (privacy protected in case any more weird guys disturb her). We holla-ed at KC and Dan and Shan but none of them could come. KC said he had to take care of his house and Dan had class (physics) and Shan said he's going to Penang with Mitleshwaran (his lil bro) and even if they weren't his parents wouldn't allow him. Of course, no one's parents would allow it. That's why Tatt and I just asked permission to go out without telling where XD

So we were travelling on the freeway (pretty smooth drive) until the Taiping highway before we took a break (my Kancil 660 had been going around 120km/h for the last 90 minutes and it was starting to feel powerless). After a 30 minute break (and a lot of Tatt's sandwiches) we made our way to the Ipoh Highway. Then everything started to go wrong lol.

Chew gave us a call and Tatt passed the phone to me, who was driving, and caused me to miss a turn and I was bz talking, n missed another turn, and I drove into a tol (thought there was a U-turn there) which prompted us to drive against the flow of traffic (try to beat this, theres even a video of it) before taking another wrong turn and almost going to Sitiawan (Yay! Fuzhou territory!) and finally an old man at the Caltex station gave us directions to the highway. Turns out we weren't suppose to exit the highway yet. So anyway we turned out, then went ahead and turned into the Tambun exit (We got scared when we saw "Cameron Highlands: 2km") and made a turn and came out (Chew was like, WHAT HOW DID YOU GUYS END UP THERE???)

So anyway we finally found our way to the Gopeng exit (didn't expect it to be THAT far). The entire trip there was more than 3 hours (30 minutes was used to find our way when we were lost n another 30 minutes 4 a rest at Taiping). Met up with Chew at the Pasar Malam. Tehn after walking around (I actually saw a girl who looked like Chew Yi! Except that this girl was plump. Would look exactly like Chew Yi if taht girl lost some weight). After that we went to Chew's house (Wow 3 storey corner house! But she isn't the owner, she's just renting a room lol). Then we chatted and chatted and la la la all about our old days and friends. Chew had this Hello Kitty bed sheet with the words "Dear Daniel" printed on it. N I was like wow you do miss Dan dont you XD

So we stayed and chatted til 10pm (Chew's classmate came midway to take a bag and he look too afraid to come in. Must be because of the presence of an ape). And boo-yah, we were off, speeding thru the night. I loved the downhill part near the Ipoh tunnel. 120km/h without acceleration babe! WOOT~!

Well I reached home at 12:30am. Really tiring, but a great day. Should do it again some time n mayb stay overnight at Kampar XD

Monday, March 15, 2010

MEAT!!!! (FINALLY)

Woot~! Finally the 49 days are over and
I CAN HAVE MEAT AGAIN!!!
Yeah it's definitely a pleasure to have meat. Can't believe I missed it so much. 2 days ago I bought a few lamb shoulders to be grilled at midnight. Marinated it in olive oil, wine, pepper, garlic and soy sauce (Tatt said salt but I decided to add a bit of Asian flavour, yeah baby!). Didn't have any herbs so I didn't put any (A bit of rosemary and tyme would be nice >.<) So anyway I grilled 2 pieces and gave 1 to my eldest sister (She was going off back to KL at 1:30am so she was the only one left awake at that time). Man, it was extremely gooooooood

But it could satisfy my hunger and I still had a major craving for more meat. So after I dropped my sister at the bus station, I took a detour and arrived at McD after 1 am :-D
McD Drive Thru... Check out the clock on my car. If you look properly it says 1.13 ^^

Me when I was ordering my food lol.

Well I just ordered a Big Mac and went home straightaway. My parents would kill me if they found out XD

Didn't snap any pix of the lamb shoulders because I didn't have my camera and my phone konked out. So no pics of it. But it was great. Had 2 more this morning ^^

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Another long week

Well since I can't come online often I guess I'll turn my blog into something like a weekly journal. And I seriously have to watch Percy Jackson soon. Wanted to watch it last Monday but Yen Ping told me that our power point presentation, which was due the next day, was in her brother's laptop and thumb drive, and
both her brother's laptop and thumb drive ARE IN KL!!!!

Well, that sucked and I had to stay home to do it. Took me 7 hours to complete it. Couldn't really complain because I really love doing power point presentations and the only reason why I gave the job to YP is because she was fussing that she had no work to do (We're in the same team with 3 others). The power point presentation (my first ever) turn out to be a blast. The teachers were all amazed by the animations and all the moving thingies that Pn Pau, my bio teacher, mentioned it a few times in class, and the boys must have been drooling over the players in my presentation because I went through a lot to search for pretty netball players. Real eye candy it was. Talk about discrimination XD

Nothing really interesting throughout the week except for the presentation, other than the perbarisan rumah sukan. I'm the flag bearer of my contingent and we are mulling over what I should wear during the opening ceremony. Vimalan wanted me to build a Bumblebee costume. But it's really a hassle and the deadline is to near so I didn't do it. Don't know what should I wear lol.

You know, I kinda realized that it was really stupid that I tried to hit on CY. I mean, yea there might loads of similarities between the two of us, like our family enforces corporal punishment, our parents don't want us to get into a relationship while we're studying, we are super sneaky, we love food, both of us have cousins who are a bit on the dark side, we bend and break rules and but we never cross the line even though we often tilt dangerously over it, and we have ties with triads and so many other stuff (Yen Ping somewhat put that all together). But if you look at the whole picture, you'll realize we aren't similar as it seems. I mean, she's a pedigree, someone of high status and class and has expensive taste, while despite the image I portray and the habits I have (Holding the door open for others to go pass first, pulling out the chair for girls to sit, proper dining and table manners, leaving a tip for the waiter even though I get charged 15% of govt tax and service tax etc), I'm a village kid at heart. A budak kampung. Son of an ex-coffee shop worker. That practically makes us worlds apart. If it was centuries ago, I won't even be allowed to go near her. Well, guess I should have thought of this beforehand. Guess in the real world, opposite repels...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Queensbay outing with ma boys

Went out with Shan and Dan and KC on Friday. Initially we were suppose to go to Gurney but Shan said that there was nothing to do at Gurney so we ended up going to Queensbay instead because Shan said we could go skating. Well it was okay since I could attempt to break my Penang bridge time record. I managed to break it by clocking 5 minutes and 50 seconds. A pretty big achievement since my car meter only goes up to 140km/h and it can only go up to 120km/h max if there is no slope. Got caught up in a bit of a jam or I swear I coulda shaved 20 seconds off my current record.

After quite a bit of debating, we finally decided to watch Wolfman because KC said no chinese movies and Shan had already watched Percy Jackson. So Wolfman it was. The line at the ticket booth was really long so we booked our tickets through the phone (It was 2 hours before the movie so I guess it was ok XD). Then we hung around the manga shop and pissed KC off lol. Man, can't he just try to be interested? Honestly I'm not much of a manga fan but I don't mind hanging around a manga shop pretending to be overly interested in them. So anyway KC left us alone and went to borders to read his psychology books. I really don't understand why he keeps reading them even though they are useless stuff. Trust me, if any of them were useful, he won't try to be a recluse and a pessimist and pretend his life is in a turmoil and all...

Went to TGI Fridays for lunch. Had vegetarian fetuccini alfredo and a glass of red. The steaks were extremely tempting, but I'm vegetarian so no meat for me. This was our lunch:
Clockwise from top left: Daniel's Chicken Caesar Salad, my Vegetarian Fetuccini Alfredo, Shan's Chicken something something (forgot what it was) and KC's Jack Daniel's Chicken. KC's face turned all red midway through his meal. We were debating whether it was the effects of the Mojito or the Jack Daniel's... Great metabolism he has...

My lunch came up to RM44 after adding the tax so I paid with a RM50 bill. Told KC that it was for the lunch+tax+tip (I always tip the waiters even though they charge service tax. It's a habit). But KC paid the exact amount and someone (I don't know who, either Shan or Dan or KC) pocketed the tip which was suppose to be for the waiters -.-

After lunch we went to watch our movie. It was a pretty average movie. Nothing really special and memorable, although it didn't suck (way better than Twilight). Shan wanted to go skating after the movie but since KC and Dan (being homeboys) were afraid of the crowd and I prefer skateboards to roller blades, we ditched the idea and went for a walkabout instead. KC ordered a pizza at Pizza Hut to eat while he was in the car. Good thing he's tidy when he eats or I would've objected lol.

Well, that's a day out with ma boys. Don't know when is the next time I can chill with them.

Note to KC: It is a fact that pessimism shortens the life of your chromosomes. Buck up man.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

CNY home visiting XD

Ah, school's starting tomorrow. Not really looking forward to school actually. It's pretty boring and stupid going to school. Wish the CNY hols could be longer lol.

Anyway I went to Taiping with my family on the 4th day of CNY. Went to visit my mom's cousin. His house was 200 steps away from the Tesco in Taiping lol (that's how he described the distance, 200 steps). Well yea, it was very near to Tesco. You can see it once you step out of the house. I was like, wow, a short walk and you get starbucks and McD and et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. Pretty cool huh? So Hock Gu (Uncle Hock in Hokkien) told us about our relatives around Taiping (It seems that my great grandfather, who was something like the head of the fishermen of Port Weld, was extremely rich and had many wives so there is a chance that almost all the Ooi's in Taiping are my relatives) and his children, his son who is living in KL and his daughter who is living in Australia.

Hock Gu's daughter married a white guy. He says that's a price you have to pay if you send your kids overseas to study. Send them there and they bring a foreign guy/girl back... Then the whole conversation came to multiracial marriages and westerners. It was an extremely uncomfortable conversation, especially when CY prefers whites and latinos to Asians (and she has a crush on a white guy at the moment). Hock Gu advised my sisters against marrying a white guy lol. He said that although the children will be beautiful kids (that's the consolation), the cultural differences would be quite big and it would be a hard life. For instance he said that my cousin (his daughter) was once sick and she rang up her in-laws and they were like, go see a doctor tomorrow and when she moved to another house, those who helped her with the moving were her parents and relatives, not her husband's side. According to Hock Gu, the westerners don't like to "intrude" into the lives of their children once their children gets married, but just like what Hock Gu said, helping them isn't actually intruding, it's actually caring about your family. Enough about caucasians and multiracial marriages already. It's getting revolting just thinking about it. I'm xenophobic anyway.

After all those chatting, went to have lunch at a vegetarian restaurant. The food was okay since I don't fancy all those soy stuff. Give me good ol' greens and legumes anytime. My sister asked Hock Gu to draw out a family tree. But it turned out that my grandmother's family (Hock Gu is my late grandmother's brother's son) was so big that midway through the family tree Hock Gu said it would be easier if he emailed us the family tree. According to him, our family has ties with a gang in Port Weld and Matang (my great grandfather was the head of some gang as well). He said life was hard in Taiping and you had to join a gang in order to survive. So almost everyone in Taiping was somewhat related to a gang (or triad, as CY calls it).

We had to go home at 2pm because my sis had tuition. Well, it was a great day out. Nice to know I got relatives all over Taiping. Hock Gu asked us to contact him if we were going to Taiping for any excursion because he can arrange everything for us lol. Will be looking forward to my next trip there XD

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

CNY Holidays and a whole lot of stuff in it...

Today is the 3rd Day of CNY. This year is pretty quiet. We had our "reunion dinner" last Saturday night. We weren't allowed to hold any celebrations at home since my granma passed away so we went to a vegetarian restaurant opposite Taman Inderawasih to have dinner. There was an empty seat on my table and we set up a set of cutlery and a plate with some food on it and said it was for granma lol. It was a merry family gathering as usual. Then on the first day of CNY we went to Kek Lok Si to pray my granma. Then we went around the Penang island to pray at various temples and then this old folks home and then we went to have Indian vegetarian food somewhere near the Cheshire home and the temple of fine arts. My 5th Uncle's wife asked me what toothpaste do I always use because my teeth are unnaturally white (Everyone agrees they look as white as dentures). The secret? I dunno. Maybe it's because I scrub really hard with my toothbrush, maybe it's because of my dark complexion.

So I've been going out to watch movies 2 days in a row with my family. Great movies. The first was Jackie Chan and Lee-Hom's Little Big Soldier and we just watched Louis Koo's All's Well Ends Well Too 2010 today. Really nice movies.

Well that's all from today. Gotta start studying soon. I want to get some A's in my next exam so that I can just get some annoying teachers off my back -.-

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Sukan Tara

Woohoo~! Today was our sukan tara. They had 3 events for everyone, long jump, shot putt and 70m sprint. I was posted at the shot putt section. Since I was the only athlete there, I had to give them a briefing of how to throw a shot putt and the rules of the game even though shot putt is not one an event I have ever taken part in (Edelyn said that everyone thought I was some top shot putt athlete or something). All the kids were like, "Oh I don't want to throw" and they were trying to escape. So I went over to the kids from my team and told them whoever who doesn't throw has to do the chicken dance in front of the whole school on sports day. That kinda made all of them throw and we managed to get a lot of points because almost none of our students were disqualified (According to the teacher, only 4 students failed).

Then I left my post after the break and had some fun. I joined my team in long jump and 70m sprint. Manage to pass every single event lol. After everything finished, it was thetime for the main event: TUG OF WAR!!!! Yep, the tug of war tournament. Frau Kok (the German language teacher who is in charge of our team) gave me the name list and I did some changes to it. Wait a min... SOME CHANGES is the understatement of the year. I should say I changed almost the whole list of students. I think only 2 or 3 students from the original name list survived my selection. Well I didn't do it without any purpose though. 1, most of the students were all skin and bones. How would we win if we put in a bunch of sticks? So I rounded up as many round students (pardon the pun) as I could find and drafted out a new name list. It was good though. We had 2 beefy guys and 7 other extremely heavy students. I was the smallest among the team, but I was the talisman (I was never lost this event on sports day before and my previous teammates have always treat me like a lucky charm) and the self-proclaimed captain (ebil laughter) so I was sure to participate.

We practically cruised through the entire tournament. No competition at all. Even though we were required to play a 3 series game, we won the first two series in every round easily. That caps a 5th successive tournament victory. Call me a talismanic captain or what? :-)

Well, today has been a great day for me. Especially during the tug of war tournament. Man, the atmosphere and the sound of the spectators screaming my name, waving to me and all... I feel like a superstar lol (Frau Kok said if we were in another country the everyone would probably have hugged me). Next up: the overall champion title for sports day. I've never won that since my first year in primary school. It'll definitely be nice to bring the curtains down to my school life with an overall champ trophy and maybe a sportsman of the games award.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

A day off

Okay I just came back from the clinic. Turns out I have a fever (100 degrees Fahrenheit) although I feel fine. Gave me an antibiotic and some paracetamol and some sore throat tablets. Cost me 48MYR in total. Met my 4th aunt on the way to breakfast today. Didn't expect her to be home so early. Well, this is going to be a short post. Hope I manage to recover soon enough lol.

Just a short note: I realized how sickly I have been for the past few years. Today when I went to the reception of the clinic, the receptionist just took one glance and asked her friend to look for the file under the my name. I was like, wow... The clinic keeps their patients records in these pink colored A4 size manila cards. If I'm not wrong, I had a brand new manila card somewhere around 2008, and this time it was already almost full on both pages. Imagine that, 2 manila cards full or medical records. That's an achievement XD
Darn I've been sick all week. I started to develop a sore throat on Monday morning, probably because I didn't drink enough water on Sunday. Actually I think I have my mom to blame. She brought me up to drink water like I breathe in air, so I'd have to bring almost 3 liters to school at least, and drink almost the same amount at home, which sums up to about 6 liters a day. Anything less and I'd be down with a sore throat. Pretty weird eh? I don't remember being so prone to sore throats when I was little. Well anyway I've been on drugs the past 3 days. Paracetamol. Once it kicks in, I can go on for a few hours without feeling sick or feverish.

On Monday I managed to survive til 7pm, managed to go to school, do a hella lotsa things and watched Universal Soldier and go to tuition... But I crashed midway through tuition and skipped my daily fitness training. Then yesterday we had a mini hari sukan for 2 Form 1 classes. It's actually a training to prepare us for the Sukan Tara since the Sixth Formers are officiating the event. I'm suppose to be something like an usher. So after they finished their mini hari sukan I did some high jump demo for the crowd. Bah, it's been 6 years since I last did that. Then after that I could stay back til 6 for our latihan sukan before going to bed before 9pm. However, I kinda crashed in school today. Can't remember what time, but I guess the 2 basketball game sessions kinda killed me off. Man, my muscles are already aching...

Today Yen Ping told me that she chatted with Chew Yi last night. She told her all about our school, the mini hari sukan and all that mumbo jumbo stuff we do in school. I kinda miss telling her about my day and all and listening to her stories and all. But what can I do?

Recently I've started reading another manga series. Vampire Knights. It sounds like a shonen manga, but according to my sis it is actually a shojo manga. Ive heard of it before but I've hardly taken interested it previously. Well not until yesterday when Edelyn said that her friends compared me and her with Kaname and Yuuki from Vampire Knights. I was like "Who and who?"... Well anyway she explained that Kaname and Yuuki are siblings, and I was like "oh okay", but she says that the both of them end up as mates. So I was like, "oh, so they're both pembantu rumahs (maids)?" and she was like, "no, M-A-T-E"... Can anyone seriously tell me how to reply to what she said? There has been rumours about the both of us even before I transferred over to the school. I usually try to avoid the situation where she tells me about what other people says about us because it's really awkward to hear her complain about them. Luckily we're still very good friends lol. It'll be a waste if I lose a friend because of all these rumours...

Man, I'm really getting sick now. When I came back from dinner just now, my wrist suddenly felt weak and it was really hard to control the accelerator. I even pulled out of a potential drag race with a kid on a super bike (Hey, although I use a decade old kapcai, there was a lot of traffic and my car dodging and weaving skills are second to none). Better go off to rest. Should skip school tomorrow and go see the doctor. Tata...

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Just another blog post

Haiz, today is the 7th of February. It's her sister's wedding tonight. She'll be performing with her guitar on stage with the live band, playing 2 songs, Def Leppard's Two Steps Behind and Vertical Horizon's Everything You Want. Man I really wished I could watch her. I could have actually, if she didn't walk away. I can still remember the day when she told me I was invited. It was a Monday, the Monday right after the weekend I fought in the Penang Combat Festival, the weekend when she got busted using another sim card and her mum phoned me up to ask if I was dating her or not. Of course, I told her the truth that I wasn't. She told her mum everything the next day. About me liking her and that I am going to wait for her to grad and all. Well her mum was fine with that though, and said she'll see if I'd stay true to my words. Well I intend to, and I will.

In other news, here is a song which Su Lyn Jie Jie sent me a few days back. Faber Drive's Tongue Tied.

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Friday, February 5, 2010

Came online last night and chatted with Yin Lan. I think she was kinda sore that my dad won't sponsor her school magazine. Well here's a fact: My sister studied in her school for 5 years and so many other students from her school has asked my dad to sponsor, but my dad has never agreed to sponsor any of them. Wondering what am I talking about eh? Ok, this is what I'm talking about: The yearbook of SMJK Chung Ling Butterworth (Yin Lan's school) has this ad section in the book and every student is suppose to go look for sponsors to fill up the book. I'm not sure how many sponsors they should find, but I think each student (or each class, not sure which) has to find something like RM250 worth of sponsors. It's pretty meaningless actually, because you have a really thick yearbook but half of it would be filled with ads of the sponsors.

Well anyway we were chatting and she was talking about how hard life was in CLB. Yea, she should have seen that coming. That's one of the top schools in Penang you're talking about. No average student goes in and "comes out alive". Well, good luck to her. Hope she can fit in soon. Anyway we were talking about our studies and she said she was in kind of a sad situation with lousy results and she can't understand much of the syllabus and I was like, hey I'm also the same. The only reason why I haven't really failed yet is because my school's exams are really easy.

So after some chatting we came up with something that could help us both. Group studying. She asked me to go plan it with May Ling in school. Well I don't have much time to do any group studying, but it will definitely pile the pressure on me and I might get my studies going.

We had school today even though it's a Saturday. Replacement class for CNY actually. So I went to school as usual and stood at the spot which I stand at every morning. Nothing unusual happened before the assembly, except that Edelyn came over to talk to me. She usually avoids being in the same place as me during school hours when everyone is around. Well it's probably because a lot of people in school thinks she is my girlfriend(According to Pei Feng, it's because Edelyn sat on my lap during hari sukan last year. Hey, there was only one chair around at that time!). So anyway she just teased me about the drink I brought to school (It was persian lime juice, but she kept hinting that it was urine) and the pink pouch I always bring to school(she was like, where's you pink pouch? Pink is a girls color). After the assembly we had this leadership course for all the presidents and secretaries and treasurers of all the clubs and uniform groups in the school. Pretty boring and useless if you ask me. And that was the entire day at school. Really not worth my time. I just wish we could stay at home and study and not go to school.

In other news, wow my blog somehow got 300 hits within the past 2 weeks. Wonder if it's the same few people reading my post. But traffic is definitely more than usual lol.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Another boring day in school

Damn school is friggin boring. I don't even know why I bother going to school. First of all, the teachers sux. Next, the teachers teach us even though the suck. Then, they give us homework, which sux as well. Not that the homework is useless (except for the MUET ones. Every single MUET homework given by Ms Yip is a total waste of time. I don't learn anything and I waste my time and pencil lead and paper writing them. That's what happens if you are lightyears away from your classmates in terms of standard.), but it takes up all our self revision time. Plus it's a hassle to have to do them and pass them up and file them properly (the last part is the worst. I always throw my homework everywhere and they always get lost). Man, now that I put it, I really don't know why I even think of going to school at all. Well it's for the sake of getting my attendance recorded and all that extracurricular activity stuff (I am the chairman of the Taekwondo club, Student Representative Council and Basketball club and I'm sort of unofficially in charge of the athletes for my house).

Well anyway, school was hella boring today. Pn Pauziah couldn't get the LCD to work and ended up asking us to study by ourselves. Then I got my time in the spotlight by teaching them Kerb's cycle (I can draw out the whole thing and explain it by memory).. After that was pretty boring as well. I slept most of the time in chemistry class and the maths teacher was absent (Yay!). But I learned 1 interesting fact though: School exams do not indicate how intelligent you are, nor do they indicate how much you know or how well you know your subject. School exams only indicate how good your memory is and how hardworking you are. Why do I say so? Here are 2 scenarios:

Scenario 1: We were in the chemistry lab 1 day and there was this big mural of a fatty acid on the wall. So I pointed at it and asked Yuva "the Genius" (or so he calls himself, he used to call himself Yuva "the Great", but since the 2 of the top students in our class transferred out, he called himself "the Genius" and told me I can have his old title) whether it the fatty acid was saturated or unsaturated. The reply I got? "Weh hang ingat aku tau benda ni ke?" ( means "Hey do you think I know?"). That was really amusing. For someone who is the top student in class, HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TELL IF A FATTY ACID IS SATURATED???? HOW THE HELL DID HE GET SUCH HIGH MARKS IN BIO????

Scenario 2: Today we were in class and our chemistry teacher was telling us something about CFC affecting our central nervous system (CNS, one of the 2 main nervous systems in our body). Then she asked us what a CNS was. None of my classmates knew. They were all like, omg, and were flipping through their revision books when I said:"Central nervous system is the brain and the spinal cord." None of them heard me though, I was sitting in the last row at the other end of the class and they were busy searching, but they eventually found out the CNS was actually the brain n spinal cord. Can you imagine it? 14 bio majors in a classroom and only 1 of them know what a CNS is. Furthermore, about 7 or 8 of them scored higher than me in the last 2 exams and most of them scored an A for bio in the their SPM (I only managed a C).

Well, I won't say the world is not fair though. It's only fair that the world gives good stuff to those who work hard instead of those who actually have knowledge but doesn't work as hard.

Couldn't really focus in chemistry tuition today because somehow my thoughts keep drifting off. It's kinda distracting that I think of her every few minutes when I am awake. Not that it's a bad thing, I mean, it's suppose to be a good thing if you think about a loved one right? But it's still distracting anyway. Couldn't understand half the class because I kept spacing out. Well gotta try to overcome this.

In other news, my instep hurts a lot. It's definitely not the ligaments. Might be the bone. Who knows?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Rise of a new dawn

The last few days have been slow... I can't seem to find the will to study. Not after what she has done to me. But I can't give up. I promised her that I'd come for her after I earn as much as 10 grand month, told her I'm willing to work hard so she can continue her four figure shopping, and so that I can get that house that she wants with a big garden and a ginormous kitchen and a canopy bed for the red-black-white and wood master bedroom. A Porsche GT3, VW Beetle, Ford Mustang and a dozen antique cars (not to mention your Proton Saga) parked in the garden. Not forgetting that Siberian Husky too...

Well, in other news, PERTIENA is having a paintball session somewhere between the CNY hols and the March hols... And guess who was the smart guy who suggested it? I bet it'll be fun. Everyone was so enthusiastic lol. Hopefully it goes well. That Mr Chan's phone line is always busy that it's so hard to enquire about the price and stuff...

Monday, February 1, 2010

A birthday and a day out

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEW YI!!!!
Well, today is Chew Yi's birthday. Didn't wish her happy birthday because it would just ruin her day. I mean, she didn't avoid me for no reason right? So I just wished her happy birthday quietly and anonymously. She won't be reading my blog so it's fine I guess.

Well, today I skipped school and went over to Penang early in the morning. I had planned to skip school all along, since 2 months ago that is. Initially I wanted to ask her out, maybe go catch a movie or lunch or something. But she claimed to be busy, so well, that's it. Guess I'll just hang out alone...

Went for breakfast with Tatt at SAB this morning. He went to college on my motorbike. Oh gawd, my old machine could only go til 80 and it groaned everytime I accelerated. Really hard riding with a 100kg feller behind me. Well we sorta survived and arrived at kdu before 8. Then I sat down to do a bit of studying and waited for Dan and Shan. Then we met KC, who finally decided to talk to me and leave his hatred behind lol. Before that he told me that he's texting me because he pitied me. But I said I don't need to gain friends through pitiness. That's pretty insulting and it ain't sincere at all. So I was like fuck off if you pity me, I don't need you, and only come back when you really mean it. I don't know if he still pities me, but if he just talks to me out of pitiness he might as well just fuck off and leave me alone.

So hung out at the library with Shan and Dina til they had class, Shan introduced me to 2 of his classmates when we were leaving. Belle and Stef. then I went to the foyer to wait for KC. "He was like, are you trying to attract her attention???" and I was like "Hell no I don't wanna spoil her day". So anyway we went up to the library and on the way we saw 2 of KC's classmates, Pei Chew and Danning. Then he was like "Oh they're so gonna tell Chew Yi". Well I doubt it. They were pretty far off and no one would expect me to turn up so hey, I doubt she'll know I went over. I mean not that she cares whether or not I go to KDU.

After that we sorta went to the library and saw the Mongolian Yaoi fangirl from KC's class, then I saw 2 other of his classmates, the Thai girl (can't remember her name, but I thihnk it's kwan or something) and Tarani. Then I decided it was boring and decided to bunk off and go to Gurney. Went there, walked about, then bought my movie ticket, then walked about a bit more trying to find vegetarian food. Went to try my luck with Dome since I wanted to clear my mind with a bit of liquor (coz Chew Yi said they sell wine, and she got tipsy after a glass of red once) and it's much better having it there than trying to nick the merlot and smirnoff from my grandma's house. Found out that Dome has vegetarian. So Vegetarian Spicy Olio Spaghetti and Red. Cost about RM42 after taxes (Spaghetti was RM21 per plate and the red was RM16 per glass) so I paid with a RM50 note (left the change as a tip as usual, it's a habit). The spaghetti was pretty nice, although it was spicy, but still it was really nice.
Here's a pic of my lunch:

The glass of Artisan's Shiraz is out of the picture lol.

Then I watched Legion. Really cool movie. Great choreographed moves, great effects, great storyline and quite meaningful too. The only drawback is that the sound effects when the 2 angels were locked in a melee battle was kinda exaggerated, like you usual bollywood movie, dush here dush there. After the movie I played pool by myself, and walked around trying to find skateboard wheels. Fruitless search though. Then I went back to college and met up with Dan and Shan and went sightseeing with my bike before coming to this net cafe to post this entry. Well it sure has been a long day. Got tuition later. Just found out I forgot to bring my grandma's housekeys. Darn how am I gonna change into my gym clothes? Nevermind, I'll think of a way.

Well, it's been quite a fulfilling day although it definitely could have been better. There was girl who sat on my left in the cinema (I always try to choose the best seat and somehow it has always been vacant) and the other side is empty. Somehow the other side is always empty. I kinda wish Chew Yi was there beside me. KC say's I'll get over her soon, but I don't know. Watching movies alone somehow makes me think of what might have happened if she didn't try to avoid me. Was she afraid to make out with me in the cinema? I don't know. KC says she talks like that in front of all the other guys and might be afraid that I might take her seriously. Well she could have just told me that we can't go for the movies. Was there any need to avoid me? I don't know. Maybe one day, 2 years later, I might be able to get a second chance. Hope I don't mess it up again. I'll wait, and the fact that a lot of people doubting my patience has made me more eager to wait patiently. Just wait and see. I'm not going to fade away so easily. Well, happy birthday Chew Yi. I hope you're happy that I disappeared from your life for the meantime. I guess you can call it your birthday present.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Too lazy to think of a title

Saturday, 30th January 2010, 11:30. Exactly 1 week and 1 hour after I found out that she cut all contact from me. Sad case.

Anyway, today we went over to the crematorium to pick up my grandma's bones and put em' in an urn. After that we put her urn in the columbarium at Kek Lok Si temple. Here's a photo of the place. Got it from the net. It's not the part where my grandma is though...

So after that we went over to a vegetarian restaurant near Tune Hotel to eat. The food was not bad. Had a bowl of ang chow mee sua and a stick of satay, then shared 4 plates of pasta and 1 bowl of ice cream (3 scoops) with my sisters. Of course I had most of it. Really satisfying meal. There were like 20 of us and the restaurant workers kinda messed up our orders and we just ate and ate and ate until we were satisfied. Pheww... Here's a pic of us:

KC will definitely kill me for not getting him a pic of my cuz whom he claims to have a crush on. Well I must admit I kinda noticed that she's quite good looking. But not as cute as my girl XD

Interesting fact here KC: Her birthday is on Valentines Day. Lets see if he'll read this and chalk up something. But he's gotta be less insipid if he's ever going to hit on my cousin -.-

In other news, life has really been hard for me. I try not to think about her most of the time but it just comes back and bites me every now and then. I know, I know, time will heal everything. But that's only if you allow it to. I don't want to forget her, nor do I want anyone to replace her. So I doubt time will heal my wounds. I wish there is something I can do that can make it right, do something which can bring back the days that we both left behind. I really miss seeing her text message every morning, miss the times where we fall asleep on each other every night midway through our text messages, miss going out with her, miss chatting with her, talking with her and everything added together. Now she is just a memory, a memory that I would never want to forget.

Well that's all. Got a reiki course tomorrow. My mum tuned my chakra this afternoon and my palms are kinda flowing with chi now.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Some random post

Grandma's funeral was today. Missed tuition because by the time the ceremony finished tuition had already started. But nevermind, it's just one class, I'm bound to catch up somehow.

Yesterday my aunt did some fortune telling with my birth date. Our cousins also had theirs calculated. This was her comment on the results:"Don't be fool by TerFu's quiet appearance. He's quite a talker and can even lure a bird down from the tree with his talking. He is very generous, and is willing to lend money to anyone who wants to borrow. He is also a good planner and lays out plans of what he will do next."

Wow, pretty accurate. I must say I'm starting to believe all this stuff lol.

In other news:
Wonder why I decided to type stuff in this blog. No one visits it, no one reads the stuff in here and no one comments in it. Plus, not many people know about it and will usually turn away when they see the "Warning age 18 and above only" page which I put up on purpose.

Boring -.-

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

As life goes on

It's really ironic. 1 day I woke up told myself that it was easier to accept the fact that you lose someone close to you to death instead of lose them while they're alive. Well yea, I really believe that because when a person dies there wont be anything that you can do to bring him/her back, duncha' agree? I mean, since everyone's gotta die someday. Might as well accept it. It's very much different from someone leaving you when the both of you are alive and well. Later that day, when I was in tuition my tuition teacher showed us the movie trailer of 1408, and in the trailer this little girl said: "Everyone has to die, daddy". Wow, deja vu... Then after tuition, I went to my dad's gym when he called and told me my grandma had passed away that afternoon. Real coincidence for all that to happen.

In a few days time, it will be another month gone. January ends and February starts. Looking back to the events of this month, I realized that it definitely wasn't my best month. Losing 3 people close to you is really hard, even though I believe it could have been avoided somehow. Must be karma for being such a twisted person as the curtains fell on the year 2009. She was the first I person who left me this year. I don't know why, neither would she tell me the reason. She just cut all contact with me. She claims nothing happened, but why can't we even be friends now?

Following up on that was my best friend, Kasey. As y'all can see he posted some comments on my previous posts and all. Yea, that's him alright. Well anyway we sorta had an argument because he was pretty pissed with me getting all depressed and sad that she left me and said that I don't know anything about sadness and sorrow and that he knows so much and knows psychology very well because he reads all kinds of psychology books which teach you how to be happy and all of that (Yet he is almost never happy, so are those books bulljizz or what?). I related this story to Brian (an ex-classmate) and he asked me what on earth did kc had to be sad about since his family is rich and he gets most of the things he want. Yea really, the main reason why kc is always so depressed and sad is because he has never went through the hard life. Never been poor before, never been hungry before, and neither has he been spanked. That would have been the ideal life if you asked me, but I kinda found out that there's nothing to complain about my life. Yea, I mean I got whipped like crazy when I was a kid (sticks, short flagpoles, cane, PVC pipes, hmmm, anything else?) and my parents would rather see me dead than trust my word over others, but all those stuff creates character. I can still remember the time when my dad allowed me to sit down and explain what happened during an accident the previous night (that night he thought I was at fault and wouldn't listen). I was really touched, honestly. I might have broken down and cried if I couldn't control my emotions. That was one of the few times my dad had actually believed my word over these years. Face it, if kc's parents had trusted him in any matter, he would just take it for granted, and sulk when his parents doesn't trust him. I might have been a little harsh with kc that night, but he must know that life is not a bed of roses. He might inherit his dad's money and get a job and all, but he'll have to struggle unless he finally realizes the real world is not at all friendly. Well kc, better cool off soon and start living in the real world (I'm not the only one who believes he's living in a fantasy world. Almost all his friends think so).

After all those losing friends, I finally (and sadly) lost a relative. My grandma. Well we haven't been close to her these few years, but my cousins and I used to spend our holidays there sometimes. Throughout the wake we were talking about the times we had in her house, the things we did and played. All of them seem so far away. I really missed doing all those stuff I did as a kid.

The death of my grandma resurfaced another piece of my memory. After some re countable tales, I managed to dig up an idea of what I was like when I was a kid. Basically, I've never had the life of a normal kid. While my cousins were allowed to have fun like a normal kid (I mean climb around, roll in the sand and all those old school innocent fun instead of playing with the PSP and NDS like kids do these days), I was often kept in shape by my parents. The times when I was allowed to really have fun was when I stayed over at grandma's house with my cousins. When I played with them, I would be the tamest of them all, like hiding in very obvious places when playing hide and seek. Well, can't blame me. I was brought up the way city kids were brought up, holed up in their homes studying and reading books and all. It took years before I found out I had the heart of a village kid (I got it from my dad I think).

Through all these years I have really changed a lot. Starting from a quiet fat baby who did nothing but eat and sleep to a mischievous little brat who was the last thing from cunning and adventurous to a kid who didn't mind getting his fists dirty as long as it was necessary to a gentleman whom almost every girl claims to be the ideal boyfriend to an out-and-out playa who played around only with the top rated girls around the hood then finally, to a violent, heartless and twisted guy with a hunger of action, adrenaline and everything else that puts you on high (no drugs, thank you) and who's guilt and conscience seem to have slipped away a few weeks back. Guess some things always change. We'll see where life leads me to. But, even as my character has changed throughout the years, there is a fact that I realized is true after all. Last night my cousin read my palm and told me something which I predicted some time ago: I won't get married. Ah, no news to me. Not that I don't want to, in fact it would be great, but I guess I was fated to make that "proclaimation about the last 1" as she puts it...

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Back again - from hell

Well it's been some time since I last posted something in my blog. Too busy to blog these days. Just imagine: Pre-U student, top athlete and president of 3 clubs by day, fighter by night, and prominent gamer on weekends. All that practically sucks up almost all the free time I have. Yea, I'm not denying that I do have free time, but it's usually either at the expense of all those stuff or when I cut short my sleeping hours, which I badly need since I use so much energy. Well it wouldn't be that bad in the future I guess. Not that I'd be able to blog regularly or anything, but at least I can concentrate on my training and studies and also my gaming, since I've already decided to not have any love life. It's just not worth all the pain and sorrow that I go through, won't wanna torture myself anymore.

Well just in case you where wondering what I'm talking about, here's a little re-cap on what happened since I last blogged:

I met this girl who studies in the same college as KC and just so happen to be a very good friend of Yen Ping's (FYI, YP is my classmate and sits beside me in class). It all started when I asked KC if he wanted to meet me after my MUET test and he said he was gonna show me around the campus and meet up with Dan and Shan (Who are, for your information, my ex-classmates).

But once I reached campus I got "kidnapped" by KC (that's the way he said it) and shoved into a silver Proton Saga and taken to Gurney. It wasn't that bad actually, except that the driver was that girl and I kinda told KC all the "grandma stories" (that's what she calls em') about her which Yen Ping told me in class and KC had previously told me that she was gonna bitch slap me. After that we kinda chatted online for a few times then she asked for my number. Then one thing led to another and we were kinda texting everyday and so and so. The other details aren't of any importance for y'all anyway. Well so I kinda fell for her and so and so and she found out and was cool with it. It didn't really affect our friendship and we were still texting each other everyday and even planned a few outings that we'd go on once our holidays ended (seems weird eh? People go out during the hols, but FYI, it's much easier to hang out after class and so and so). But one day, one day after the new year, she just vanished. Poof. Well it's not really that dramatic, but she just started treating me coldly. I don't know why, might be because she's acting under her mum's orders (Met her mum before, been in both her mum's bad books and good books, but I don't know where I stand now. According to her, her mum doesn't even care about me) or she could be just pulling out because she just got tired of entertaining me. Well either way she just started replying my text messages hostilely and so and so...

That's not so bad actually. I wanted to just act dumb and just continue to text her from time to time. I mean, we might patch up eventually. But something happened last night, 22 days after she decided to give me the cold shoulder, 3 months and 3 days after I met her - I was blocked from her facebook. Whatever that made her do that, I would never know. But all I know is that life hasn't been as kind on my private life as it has been on other aspects of my life. Yet, what happened last night was utterly unbearable.

I could still remember there was once I got her into huge trouble with her parents (I really mean HUGE. I was even summoned to meet her parents to explain the situation and et cetera, et cetera, et cetera), I felt so guilty and decided to break all contact with her because I was really ashamed of what I did (no we didn't have sex or anything like that. Don't get any ideas). So I kinda switched off my phone most of the day and check it occasionally in the middle of the night. She somehow managed to get me one night (I received loads of miscalls from her workplace and her home). She kinda said she felt hurt with the way I was avoiding her. Thinking back I wonder if she ever meant whatever she said, that she'd hate to lose me as a friend, that she cared about me. I feel like a loser, having been wrapped around her finger and played with all this while. I'm not complaining about the attention she gave me last year, but she could have done better than make a 180 degree turn after all that and leave me all by myself.
Well, I do hope our paths will cross one day. I once made a proclaimed that you will be the last girl I hit on, since you initiated a bet whether or not I'd stick to it, I'd like to tell you that the bet is still on, and I won't lose the bet. Hopefully our friendship will foster when we meet again. Just like you said, we never know what will happen in the future.